I think it’s interesting how a higher than usual amount of dopamine in the brain just causes pleasure, but if it goes way too high it causes hallucinations. Anti-psychotics work by normalizing dopamine levels. I find that very intriguing.

the people at the library were so nice and excited to see a new patron that i decided to delete my crazypost of “i have a library card and you dont” because i gave them my email from this website’s domain and dont want them thinking ill of me lol

There Claire sits, looking white, and female. Not androgynous, very binary in appearance.

i reinstalled my server and installed coolify to simplify deployment of stuff. it seems to work pretty well. i like it.

Yesterday i had a psychiatrist appointment and i dont remember too much of it but i do remember when i told the psychiatrist i was taking the prescribed vitamin d capsules daily, she looked at me in horror and ran to my pcp down the hall. Apparently I was only supposed to take it weekly […]

it didnt come out the way i wanted but at least i have a tint i guess. ill make sure to apply more and bleach it before next time.

I keep struggling to maneuver my hands over the guitar in the correct way and not screwing up the sound and im wondering if this is due to the spacing with the strings or just my guitar beginner fingers. i’m not sure.

get me the fuck out of this town

Only time I get something done fast and effectively is when I’m really freaking PISSED or really freaking SCARED.

i really like docker. it really simplifies deployment and configuration of things and everything feels so seamless.